Dear God..

I know I miss him. I don’t know whether it’s good or not, but honestly it hurts a lot to myself. now tomorrow is the day i’ve been counting down for several months, not because i’m too excited to face it, but it’s the day i wish would never come. it’s a half an hour to tomorrow, i cant afford myself to face this.

to my dearest Lord, please grant my wishes. make him happy, where ever he is now for I am so in love with him and I want nothing but the best for himself. please help me to be strong and carry on life. I’d really wish that I can be with him again, or at least be close with him. I know maybe it will be impossible to happen, so that’ll be alright if there’s no direct contacts or something, atleast  i can meet him even in a distance it would be really nice. but please, again, if that is not the best for him, or it wouldn’t make him happy, that’ll be alright if I keep those passions for myself. The most important thing is his happiness.

for H wherever you are right now, Happy 1st anniversary with your girlfriend. If she has made this year a wonderful year for you, I am here really being happy, for you have met a great woman who had been a really great companion for you :)

I Love you, I always do